{"id":34258,"date":"2018-03-30T08:01:31","date_gmt":"2018-03-30T12:01:31","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blogs.studentlife.utoronto.ca\/lifeatuoft\/?p=34258"},"modified":"2018-03-29T08:03:08","modified_gmt":"2018-03-29T12:03:08","slug":"guess-whos-back-in-the-house","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blogs.studentlife.utoronto.ca\/lifeatuoft\/2018\/03\/30\/guess-whos-back-in-the-house\/","title":{"rendered":"Guess who’s back in the house"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Me during a UC Gargoyle production night, one of my few nights of resolve during the semester.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\r\n\r\nI\u2019m not going to pretend that I\u2019ve been around this entire semester. So let\u2019s face it: it\u2019s been a while since my last post in January. Shortly after that post, I started to experience a depressive episode that caused me to spend most of my time in bed, barely eat, and experience frequent dissociations. All in all, it was a scary experience.\r\n\r\nEmerging from a depressive episode is also a scary experience, since I now have to deal with catching up on work, classes, and deadlines I\u2019ve missed. As I\u2019m currently writing this, I\u2019m still in the process of getting in contact and meeting with my professors and TAs. I have no idea what\u2019s going to happen.\r\n\r\nPicture yourself falling into a deep slumber and then waking up years later. The entire world has moved on without you, and all of a sudden you\u2019re trying to find your place in it again. That\u2019s how I feel at the moment. Things were going well, I had just gotten the hang of my classes and now I feel like I\u2019m back at square one. There\u2019s a large chunk of the semester that I\u2019ve just missed out on.\r\n\r\nAgainst all odds, I\u2019ve decided to keep my head up and move forward. In this particular case, I know that there is nothing <\/em>I could have done to prevent myself from falling behind. All I can really do right now is try and catch up. Would I have preferred that my mental illness had not affected my work, grades, and performance these last few weeks? Of course, but it\u2019s out of my hands.\r\n\r\nFor a while, I thought about dropping out of school altogether. I keep finding myself in patterns of falling behind every time a new symptom of my mental illness surfaces. I started to wonder if there was a point. Was I ever going to finish my degree?\r\n\r\nBut the bottom line is: I want to be here. I enjoy what I\u2019m studying and have done well in my classes. I had just been elected the Content Editor-in-Chief of the UC Gargoyle<\/em> and the Leader of the Opposition of the Trinity College Literary Institute. There are many reasons for me to stay.\r\n\r\nThe only reason I even considered dropping out of school was my mental illness but that\u2019s not a good enough reason to drop out of school altogether. Let\u2019s face it: having a major disability can make your undergraduate experience more difficult; it can even prolong the time you spend on your degree. But that\u2019s not a reason for me to not be a student at all; especially if I want to stay.\r\n\r\nThe road ahead is dark and mysterious. I\u2019m not entirely sure what\u2019s going to happen with my current courses, but I know that I\u2019m going to do my best to catch up and stay.","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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\nI\u2019m not going to pretend that I\u2019ve been around this entire semester. So let\u2019s face it: it\u2019s been a while since my last post in January. Shortly after that post, I started to experience a depressive episode that caused me…\n<\/div>
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